Up until now this whole thing has been pretty smooth sailing. This week turned out to be the first major gale. I am not sure how it happened but I went a little off the rails this weekend. (Sorry for mixing my metaphors.)
I take that back, I do know how it happened. Sometime on Friday afternoon, I made the decision to stop worrying about my calories and enjoy myself for the weekend. A rational decision after 11 weeks of counting every little calorie. I was on vacation after all. Unfortunately, giving myself permission to stop counting calories some how translated into giving myself permission to stop working out and to stop watching what I eat.
The point is I ended up gaining back the three pounds that I lost last week. And it is looking very likely that I am going to have my first gain in 11 weeks.
I am not so worried about how much I ate this weekend. In the grand scheme of things it wasn't horrible. I didn't sneak snacks or eat any more than everyone else. I even made a few smart decisions (Turkey brats instead of regular, etc.)
I'm not even that worried about the possibility of a gain.. beyond being disappointed at breaking my 11 week streak.
I had a great weekend with my family and I didn't let the weight gain ruin it!
Here are the two things that really worry me.
1. After feeding my body at something approaching my old rate of calorie consumption, my body is seriously joensing for more, more, more. I am having cravings like I haven't had for nearly two months now. I hope that getting back on routine this week will help settle things down, but it was a challenge not to break down and snack for snacking sake. In fact, I made a solo trip to the grocery on Sunday and I was moments away from buying myself a candy bar. I have no clue where I summoned the willpower to resist but I did. Although, I did dig into a bag of chips that I had bought for the barbecue on the way home. A bad sign that I couldn't wait the 10 minutes for lunch to be ready.
2. It was way to easy to not go out for my run on Saturday and Sunday. Sure the weather was lousy, but I had plenty of opportunities to get out and walk and I didn't take them. Instead I sat around watching TV all day.
I thought I was beyond this point. I thought it would be harder to back slide than it turned out to be. And that is what really scares me.
If I am someone who is truly addicted to food, then my vigilance will need to be a life time thing. It is not something I will be cured of after I get to my goal weight. I had started to think that I was invincible to food. I got cocky and now food has put me back in my place.
So we start over, get back on routine and hopefully take heart in the lesson learned: I have a long way to go!
Tony
8/20: 242.4 lbs.
Goal: 220 lbs.
22.4 lbs. to go
p.s. While I did gain back 3 lbs. over the weekend, I am not changing my sign-off weight. Friday is the official weigh-in and I promise not to weigh myself again until then.
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4 comments:
Tony, it could take 6 months or more for the exercise to be come a habit. It is a good habit to have. I belive it is the magic pill for health. The funny part is it only takes weeks for it to stop being a habit. Get back to it and start moving again.
Dad
Thanks for being so open about this. I fell off the wagon a little while ago, and then kind of lost the wagon.
In my own mixed metaphor, I'm considering the first sput a test drive, and now I'm going to own this weight loss thing.
Good for you for not beating yourself up, and for moving forward.
You may be pleasantly surprised when you see the scale this week. Just keep exercising and you might just burn all that fatty stuff off!!
Isn't it interesting how hard the weight comes off and how easy it goes back on. Losing weight is easy (for the most part) when you put your mind to it. It is the maintaning the lose that is hard.
If you get back on track, I think you will do just fine this week. Maybe sometime you would like to talk to a specialist about your issues with food.
The difference between now and 3 months ago is that you will get on track and not give up. Also, you have asked us to keep you accountable. So, I'm asking you for your health, to think about what you want for the rest of your life.
I love you
Mom
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